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| 04:11pm 13/02/2004 |
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I feel like crap. I have major girl problems and they just keep getting worse and worse and worse..... I hate being a girl. Valentine's Day... the end of the Bermuda Triangle, thank God. I don't think I can handle one more depressing holiday. They are playing all love music all day long on the radio and every commercial is about what to buy that special someone for Valentine's Day. I think I need to go and by myself something since I don't have a specila someone. At least I save money that way. I think I am going to stay in bed all day tomorrow, Sarah will be mad at me. I am in pain too though so I do have an excuse. I wish it was last week and I was able to move and could get the high from Aerobicize 2000! That was fun and I felt good! Saucey thinks that Aerobicize is what made my girl problems come on. Oh well. They would have come on eventually anyways. |
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| Do I have to Finish? |
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| 12:07am 29/05/2003 |
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I don't want to finish my lesson tomorrow. The children who I am teaching do not know how to do anything. What has the teacher been tecahing them this whole year? They cannot read or write, so I had to change my lesson. I hope they can listen. Well they can't but they have to. I am going to have a Seera weekend. I am going to do shit for myself. I want to go to the Piano bar for my birthday I think. I will have to see what is planned. Can't have too much fun on the birthday because I have to go to a babyshower the next day. I tried to call Dave to see if he still would be my date for the wedding but no call back? where is he? The boy with the baby is gone. I am coping, but my heart is seriously broken. Figures.. |
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| Thursday... not friday |
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| 09:22pm 22/05/2003 |
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mood:  nervous
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I woke up today and thought it was Friday. I was late to work because I had to go back home to get my book bag for class. Class was boring. Hot. I got an 84% on the exam, which is really good since the class average was 81%, so I was happy. I came home and planted flowers and was followed to the dumpster by scary fat man who looked lonly for someone to talk to him. He told me he could carry my trash for me from now on and I said "that's ok". Then Tiffany made me meet the girl who lives in the house with the cat on the tie out. She was ok, but seemed to really want to talk. Ok so first no one wants to talk to me and then they all want to talk to me and for a long time... make up you mind!! Overall, ok day, though I am still in this funk. I can't explain it... not depressed, but not happy either. I think it could have something to do with these three things:
1. I have offically been single for a year
2. Me and the Heilman boy would have been together 9 years on Tuesday (don't ask why I remember it)
3. The boy with the babay that I love hasn't called in a few days.
Yeah, thats' probably it... oh well tomorrow is friday... 3 day weekend! Yippee! |
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| 11:50pm 21/05/2003 |
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mood:  gloomy
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I feel so yucky this week. I can't believe it is already half way over. I just want to sleep. My house is trashed, I mean seriously trashed and I have no energy to clean it. I don't even care. I feel very emotional right now, too. I want to cry over everything. I am losing it! I am sick of the cold weather , too. Does the weather know that it is May 22 and I still have my heat on and wither coat out? humm...
The man with the baby hasn't called me in a few days. I wonder if the praying mantis ate him? That makes me sad. I hope something fun happens to me this weekend. I am starting to fall into a hole and am afraid that I won't be able to get out. And I have to get a bit happier because I have to go to teach the children on Tuesday. I have to get all of the stuff ready for my lesson. I need to practice it on someone before hand. I am nervous. I am excited, I have no special ed children in my class because I did have some PO-HI kids but had to trade with a big mama. I am happy about this because a) I am not trained to teach special education kids
b) PO-HI is a very broad category of impairment. How can you plan for that?
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| 01:54am 20/05/2003 |
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mood:  lethargic
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What an eventful day. Melissa is cursed. First she gets robbed at gun point, then sarah comes to take us out to lunch and she gets a speeding ticket and then today I am taking her to the secretary of state to get a new id and I get a ticket! Fuck!Then she locked her keys in her car. What the hell is going on with her?
Then I have been doing homework for days and I can't finish. I should give up and go to bed. I finished my lesson but am going to fail the exam. Why did I ever want to be a teacher? I guess I want to be poor and get no sleep for the rest of my life!
I hate praying mantises. Why do they have to trap the guy I love and bite off his head? He can't come out and play anymore this week because he has to watch the baby. Baby... that sounds weird. I love a man with a baby. I wonder if he drinks champagne like the man with the baby at the wedding? Oh well. And why does that stupid celine dion song have to be used for every advertisement? It keeps getting stuck in my head. Ok, calm down... one day at a time... right?Ok I'll go to bed for 2 hours and wake up and finish studying. |
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| 06:45pm 02/05/2003 |
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I have nothing to do. It feels wonderful. Jessi is not that mad at me any more... I think. I think it is stupid that I have to travel out of state to watch my friend purchase her wedding dress. Doesn't she know that I am depressed. That will make me feel worse. I am going to do all Sarah stuff this weekend. Maybe I will even finish the rest of the cheap wine that got me drunk. I had to drink a lot of wine to write the story of my life to someone. It was really hard. Then me and Saucey talked about how we hold on to anything that a guy say that we like. We are pathetic. Oh, well. Got to go shower, I smell and I went to work like this today.... |
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| I took the Test |
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| 06:42pm 02/05/2003 |
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mood: crappy
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Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High |
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| 11:28pm 28/04/2003 |
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Sometimes I don't understand why someone calls you their friend and then says a bunch of crap about you. Girls are mean, jealous... bitches. I am depressed. I am beat up. I got pulled into a fight and am all broke up. Plus I am ill. I want to call into work tomorrow but I can't. I am not going to Huron this weekend because my best friend called me a homewrecker. I think I need to find some new friends. |
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| Free At Last |
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| 12:16am 07/01/2003 |
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mood:  confused
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I am no longer a pizza nazi! I am free. Got into a huge fight with James and walked out on Saturday. I feel a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I am no longer on the sinking ship! Anyhow, now I got to find a job. School starts tomorrow. Didn't we just get out? I am sick of it all. I want to run away somewhere warm and fun with my car, chihuahua and bank account. I am so sick of my life being in all this drama. New Years Resolution #2 (#1 was to quit smoking which lasted 4 days until I quit my job)...NO MORE DRAMA! And it would be nice if something positive could happen to me. |
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| 09:32am 18/09/2002 |
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mood:  awake
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I forgot to set my alarm and I still woke up way too early. The dog was putting little toys in my face. Jessi says that cousin slutty and dumb ass are thinking about moving out of state. Could my dream finally be coming true? Last night was Tuesdays at Tap Room, which is new because we had to switch up our Tuesday night beer stop because I was an asshole. Anyways, it was fun and it was cheap so we like it better. And they had a live band and... free popcorn! How can we possibly pass it up! No school today, which means I can relax and do laundry, except for the fact that I have to leave my house to do homework and go out with Melissa tonight and I am broke. |
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| Hangovers, Hungry and Homework |
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| 06:35pm 15/09/2002 |
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mood:  pessimistic
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I have homework that I don't want to do, can't stop being hungry and a hangover that should be a lot worse than it is. Had way too much fun last night since I have to be reminded of what happened. Oh well... |
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| 12:22am 04/09/2002 |
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Today feels like a monday. I woke up this morning and locked my keys in the house on my way to work so I knew it would be a good day. I have no Jetta until Monday. I am sad. I have to drive the Escort that smells like pizza and cigerettes. Went to see Mariah's new crib. It is pretty nice for being in a not so nice area. I haven't drank since Saturday! Aren't ya proud....and I am not even shaking! |
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| 01:51pm 02/09/2002 |
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mood: depressed
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I am depressed. I want to run away and never come back. I don't want to get out of bed today. What is wrong with me?I wish I could get happy. I watched 2 movies last night with Sarah and they were funny but I am still depressed. I really don't want to go back to school. That is why I moved home. But now I am starting to miss all of my friends and wish my life could be normal again. Help.. |
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| Hang over from hell |
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| 02:10pm 01/09/2002 |
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mood:  sick
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I have the hang over from hell. I also have scraped up knees. I got pushed while there was a fight going on. anyways, It was fun. Everyone and their mother knows about Ryan throwing the chair at the Jetta. Aaron knows and I never talk to him. Well, gotta go back to bed |
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| 11:19pm 20/08/2002 |
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mood:  hopeful
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I am going on vacation tomorrow. Very excited to leave the vicinity. I have been having bad customer relations at work lately so it's a sign for me to go. The Jetta is only going to cost $725.00, stiil it's a lot. Frat boy is going to pay for it when I get back. Am very excited to go on party bus for Jenn-I's birthday. Should be really fun. Finally am getting a cable modem! Yippee. Might have a new part time job when I return too. |
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| 07:06pm 15/08/2002 |
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mood:  pissed off
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My roommate, ex-roommate as of today, threw an armchair at my Jetta yesterday and dented and scratched the hell out of it. I hate him. I filled out a police report. I think he wanted to throw me too. Oh well. He took all of his stuff, turned in his key and left his cat there. I am going to call the humane society on him. Jetta is going to cost about $1000 in damages. Frat boys are so cool... |
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| 08:08pm 11/08/2002 |
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Moved a bunch of stuff on Friday and Saturday. Saturday I mowed the lawn. I never did that before. I mowed a dead bird on accident. Then I went out with mark on Saturday night. We went to dive bar where there was kareoke. Was pretty fun. Went to the lake today and ate a lot of food. I now have food coma... |
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| 1 week left!!! |
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| 06:43pm 08/08/2002 |
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mood:  thirsty
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Only one more week in the shit hole apartment. I am excited. I got my storage facility today. My roommate said that he paid the rent...I think that he lies. He told me he didn't know that we had to move so soon...Dumb frat boy.
The D.O. sucked last night. Got to find a new bar for a few weeks. Melissa's car smelled like Frankies last night. |
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| 06:06pm 07/08/2002 |
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I am tired. I was up all night burning stuff. It was therapeutic. There was a moderate amount of drinking and way too many cigarettes involved. Now I have to pack......
Is my roommate moving too? We have to be out in a week and he hasn't packed one thing. He is too busy drinking beer and hanging with his slutty girlfriend. Gotta go to the D.O. tonight to vent with the girls... |
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